Wednesday, August 6, 2014
Body image issues
It's no secret that like most women I suffer from some issues in how I see my body.. Even in high school I was a size 6/8 and I thought I was beastly, now as an adult I'm about twice that size and its not making me feel any better naked. Ive tried so many things.. Ive juiced, I've done weight watchers and working out never gets fun like all those weird skinny girls say it will.. I even decided to sign up for a 5K and thought putting my money on the line would get me motived to get my act together... nope, I still try and work out but its not as consistent as it should be.
So recently I've decided to look at myself differently, to embrace the body I'm in now and not hate myself until I get where beauty standards tell me I'm supposed to be..
It wasn't an easy task, I didn't wake up one day and say "I love the skin I'm in". This took time, it took maturity and it took self confidence that i didn't have before. People in my life tried to tell me I was beautiful, my body was one that men desired, that I wasn't fat I was "thick". Men in my life have always praised my body, even my trip to Jamaica helped me see that others don't see my figure the way I do.. Yet I still saw myself as the chubby little girl used to get bullied in elementary and middle school..
However I did wake up one day and wonder what good it would do to continue to hate myself.. Im too old to still hold on to the issues of my 14 year old self. I figure its time to start listening to all of those inspirational quotes I post daily.. I can continue to work on myself but I will love myself every step of the way in the mean time. Now I embrace my thighs, my stomach, my arms.. I know that I'm not in the best shape of my life, but dammit it could be worse and no matter the jiggle I'm still beautiful! For the first time in a LONG time, I looked at a picture of myself in a bathing suit and thought "DAMN that girl looks good"!
What Ive learned and the little nugget of knowledge i want to share is, if your struggling with your self image, with body issues, no amount of praise from others will change the way you feel about yourself. You have to be happy with the way god made you, and know that you are who you are, the way you are, for a reason.. and that has to be good enough!
In the spirit of not making this a super serious post have a little fun and enjoy this song that i can't seem to get out of my head. Listen to the words of wisdom from Meghan Trainor: "Momma she told me don't worry about your size, she says boys like a little more booty to hold at night!" Enjoy! All About That Bass